Living Life As It Is

there’s a boy,

i like him,

could be one side,

but i will not give up. 

<3 <3 <3

09 March 2012

Reading this passage below make me cry, cause i no longer know the old him :’(. It was just last 2 days we fought, he seems to give up on me, he said he doesn’t love me anymore and bored of me. Yes it’s sad cause if he really love me, he wouldn’t give up. The only reason im behaving like this because you said ‘what for fight for you? I already have you.’ hmm. The moment he said that, my heart just drop. So, for the past 1year 1month by tmr, i have been the only person fighting for this r/s. And it last. But this can’t go on, i can’t be the only person fighting.im tired, im so tired of fighting while you are not. Hmm. Everytime we fight, you intend to use whatever i told you against me. It’s hurtful. The moment when i trust you to hold on what i told you, you used it against me when we fight. You always use the word trust as a reason. Hmm. I’m sorry, i can’t trust someone just like that. You want me to trust you, for once i trust you and tell you the things that is bothering me, and when the moment we fight, you used it all against me. This sentence ‘She’s the most adorable, caring, loving, cute, sweet person i’ve ever known.’ , is it even the truth? Cause you once said that there is nothing positive you can think regarding me, all negative. And when you said ‘i love you’ it is the truth? Or is it for the sake of saying? Hmm. Im tired, im so tired of being the only person fighting. I will stop, when i have the feeling when you have no interest in me. Hmm :’(

“Me and Baby before we got attached :D
9 months just passed after we took this iphoto. She, well, a lot of things to say actually. First of all, i have never loved a woman like how i love her. She’s the most adorable, caring, loving, cute, sweet person i’ve ever known. Yes we fought and quarell. All couples do. But that doesn’t change the way i love her. I have never gotten bored of her even though we have nothing to talk about sometimes. Secondly, we’ve been through a lot. Ups and downs. Misundestandings. Cried here and there. Natural for couples. But, we went through it together, still strong. Fight after fights, we still end up together. That just bring us a more mature, stronger bondings between us, more confident in ourselves, to make it through until we get married, if we’re fated. Lastly, oh, i just love her a lot. No words can ever describe this feeling of mine. It’s like more than love. She’s been there for me always. I hope she feels the same way as i do :/ 100211 The date where we start our love journey together. And hopefully, we’ll be like this together. Till death do us apart Baby. You mean everything to me. My half apple. Life is incomplete without you. I love you Baby. XOXO.”